I went to the bookstore for Anna today.
I was exhausted after work, but I knew that it was something that I should do for her. I walked around the children’s section for a while to see if anything jumped out at me. They really didn’t have anything with doggies. Then I found the coloring and activity section. I saw Press Out Pets book with dogs. I didn’t know what it was at first, I just saw dogs and picked it up. Apparently they are like paper dolls, but in dog form. I thought Anna would like it, so I held onto it. Then I started sorting through the coloring books trying to find something with doggies. I thought this task would be a lot easier than it was. I went through the entire aisle and didn’t find anything with just doggies. Then I went over it one more time and noticed something that said Paw Patrol. I guess it’s a cartoon or something. Perfect. A coloring book full of doggies. Anna will love it. Oddly enough, hidden behind it was a beaten up Sesame Street coloring book that looked like it was from the 90s. I remembered my therapist mentioning that Anna liked Sesame Street. So I picked that up, too. Hopefully Anna will be happy. Maybe she can help me with the Sesame Street, because aside from Elmo being red, I’m not sure I know anyone else.
I have a short day at work tomorrow, so I am going to spend the rest of the day doing things that Anna would want to do. Maybe it will help me connect with her. I don’t really know how this works. I hope I’m doing this right. I’m trying.
In an effort to educate myself, I ordered a dozen or so books on DID and dissociation. What I know is what I’ve learned through psychology courses. I feel that now since I have it, and that I will be blogging on an open forum about it, I should educate myself as much as possible about it. How can I expect others to look to me for help when I don’t know what I’m talking about? I wish I had an alter that liked to read. THAT would be helpful.