If you are reading this right now, I want you to know some things.
Everything you are feeling is valid.
You are allowed to be angry. You are allowed to be sad. You are allowed to be frustrated, pissed off, and mad at the world. You are allowed to feel any way you want and need to feel.
You don’t have to love your mother. Despite what society tells you, some mothers aren’t all that great. Sometimes, they are downright toxic. They may have hurt you, abused you, maligned you, or made you feel worthless. These mothers don’t deserve your love and respect. They didn’t earn that yet, and they possibly never will.
You are not a bad person for not loving your mother. Sometimes, it takes as much strength not to love as it does to love.
And if you do love your mother, even after all she’s done to you, that’s okay, too.
You know why? Because everything you feel is valid. Your heart and mind know the truth; the truth that people on the outside can’t see (or choose not to see).
Never let anyone make you feel bad for how you feel.
Go ahead and let out that anger. Go ahead and cry. You are allowed to grieve the loss of the mother you should have had, the relationship you deserved.
You are not obligated to anyone but yourself. You don’t owe your mother anything, despite what she or others may tell you.
You deserved more than a toxic mother.
I know it hurts. I feel the pain every day. I feel the emptiness within my heart where my mother should be, but isn’t. It’s a pain that only those of us with toxic mothers can understand. It’s a pain that lingers and never quite goes away. A piece of you feels like it’s missing.
You can still find that missing piece. You can still find that love and care you should have gotten from your mother. Sometimes, you find it in other family. Sometimes, you find it in friends. It may already be within you. You just have to connect the pieces.
You are worth it.
Take care of yourself. Be your own mother. You deserve it.
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Thank you so much for writing this. I resonate with every.single.word. x
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